Insomnia

Sometimes I think because I haven't been challenged during the day intellectually, my brain refuses to turn off at night and let me sleep!   I laid in bed for about 30 minutes, trying to find a comfy position with the moon boot on, and just couldn't drift off.  I don't want to take anything to induce artificial sleep and it's not like I have to go anywhere tomorrow to be rested for either, so I'm just trying to find quiet things to do with my guys sleep.

My house is an absolute wreck.  The Christmas decorations are still up, Ryan's loot from Santa and the grandparents is strewn everywhere, and the clutter is mounting.  Usually a little bit of a mess doesn't bother me one bit, but I'm starting to really get disgruntled.  I want to be able to clean some of it up and get some form of organization going, but there is just no way to do it with only one good leg and one available hand (the other on the walker at all times so I don't fall again.)   I guess I have to just suck it up.  I can't ask Aaron to do much more than he's doing right now, which is basically everything.  So, a disaster it will be for now.

Aaron's company announced today that because of the economy there will be no merit raises or bonuses this year, or basically until they can turn it around enough to put them back into the compensation equation.  Ordinarily, this would really piss me off because he works so damn hard every single day and really deserves that raise and bonus.   However, at this point living in Michigan and doing the work that I do everyday, I'm just grateful that he still has a job and one that pays pretty well in the process.  Sure, a raise would be nice, but for now I'll settle for status quo knowing how much worse it could really be.  During this recovery period I have had time to dwell on how bad this surgery sucked and had a little pity party, but have also really focused on all of the great things in my life--my family, friends, roof over my head, etc...I'm trying to stay positive for 2009.  Even if I am stuck on this couch, at least I have a couch to rest my butt on and elevate my wounded leg with!